Does anyone thnk im going to ever have my first kiss?

I have never kiseed anyone and I'm 14 I have never had a bf neither.I guess I'm feeling lonely its cuz my cuzin daisy has a bf she's 13 n she had her first kiss wit him him. It wasn't a normal kiss it was a total mack session!!!I was the first she told but idk I guess I feel I'm never gonna get a guy cuz I'm insecure and I say I'm ugly whhich a lot of ppl say I'm not.ppl say I'm pretty and so do guys on facebook but I am overweight and I'm working to lose it and I have lost atleast 20 pounds but I still need more wat u guyz think??